READY FOR FLIGHT-

Monday-(Mind day)20 AUGUST 2012

I believe I'm an Eagle, I have been studying the bird for a while now. I didn't always know that I was an Eagle, I fought it so many times. Recently through some pruning I've been going through it, it is settled. I'm happy to fly now at that level.

It is the 20th of August 2012. I have been thinking about this blog over and over in my mind. Nothing in my life has had a reference that sometimes I really wonder WHAT! is going on, then I remember - the Eagle, not like any other bird. I listen to other people's testimonies and really it doesn't sound familiar. So I've completely surrendered to the journey and the process instead of fighting against it, God is on the throne.

I have been learning about discipline, waking up at the same time early every morning. Starting with silence prayer, communion and prayer. having a schedule and sticking to it. So I signed up for Netball every wednesday im there, whatever happens im there. I had made a commitment to start swimming last year & I did in October, I've been good about it, but still learning. Most of all I've been learning to be still, alone, and listen.

Where do I start? I am an actress & a film-maker, a mother. At first I thought I could just continue doing videos, auditions, playing other people's scripts etc, etc NO I had to learn not to compare myself to anybody else, there isn't only one way to be whatever it is that is your VISION i'm still unlearning so many things that I thought I had to go through to be an actress, a film-maker. All that hollywood, popular stuff happens to very few in comparision to the number of entrants, if it is truly a numbers game- then WHOA. So I have learnt we have to do a new thing, write our own scripts, cast ourselves, hire our own people. It is almost like the answer to South Africa's unemployment is Entrepreneurs,therein is where the answer is. Believe me this isn't easy, it is easier to get a job and work for someone else's vision and collect a salary, pay bills and not rock the boat, it is easier but it isn't GREATNESS. It is not selflesss either, in order to solve humanity's challenges we have to built wealth and greatness. Isn't that the greatest love to accumulate for distribution, to build schools, instead of complaining about the state of education, the recession etc.

 I've always wanted thousands of freinds, I never really had any. I've always had that one or two people that will always be there for me, not more. In really difficult and wilderness experiences I will find myself alone, but I believe this is only for a season. I believe my emotions have been my weakness therefore I had to learn self-mastery Im still learning! We have to learn to do what's right, even while it feels wrong. we have to do what's right even when everyone and everything else is showing us the opposite. So I end off with this note: Write the VISION, and make it plain upon the tables, so he may run that reads it. For the VISION is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not delay.